Wednesday, September 20, 2006

The need for normal...

It has been an intense summer!!! Things around here have been anything but normal, which is why I needed to go A.W.O.L. for a while. Things have just taken their toll and I seem to have developed depression from all the stress. I think if I could just get around better and be more comfortable my mood would improve. It just takes it's toll knowing my life will never be the same again. Things like doing laundry can be quite a challenge. Getting the laundry, soap, fabric softener up and down the stairs is impossible to do in one trip. Shopping is also difficult. Lifting items into the cart and back out to get rung up, then back in the cart, and out again and into the car. Then once you are home, trying to get them inside... Most of the time I have to have someone go shopping with me, that's if I'm even up to going at all. You just take for granted how easy it is to do everyday tasks till you start having trouble doing them...Sorry, I didn't mean for this to end up in this direction...

Hubby and I moved from our 5 bedroom house into something smaller. The kids are on their own so we really didn't need all the space anyway. Buddy (the dog) and Purl (the cat) have adjusted well, although Buddy seemed to have an easier time than Purl.

My knee problems have gotten worse. I recently completed about 2 months of P.T. The P.T. did help to strengthen my muscles but did nothing for the pain. I am now having problems with my "good knee", back and hips. Last month the doctor changed my meds, which has helped some. At this point there is no happy medium. It's painful to sit, to stand and to walk. But you push through because you have no other choice. You can't stop living your life. You do what you can, when you can, as well as you can and hope that it's good enough. You get used to walking slow, and having people stare at you because you are 40 something, wear a knee brace and walk with a cane. I think the thing that gets me the most is when people gawk. If you are going to be like that and ask your friend, "what do you think happened to her?" loud enough to be heard by others, why not just ask??? I have seriously thought about having a shirt made that says..."You want to know? Then ask!" or how about..."I shattered my knee. Still curious? Just ask." What do you think???

Anyway...
Then I broke my glasses and had to have an eye exam and was told things look suspicious, go to a specialist. So, off I went. It turns out there is a chance I could develop Glaucoma. I need to go back in December for another eye exam. Oh, and I ended up needing bifocals.

The girl is getting a divorce. I can't go into details right now but maybe at a later date I will be able too. I will say that I am not surprised at the recent events that have that have come to pass and I truly hope that the saying "What comes around, goes around" holds true in this case.

How about some good news...Hubby got a job offer from a good company, and decided to take it. He is working 10 minutes from home so no more commuting, he got a pay increase, great hours and the benefits are really good too. It's so nice to see him come home in a good mood!

Knitting news...
I haven't done much knitting over the summer. I did finally complete the back of the cable sweater and start the front. (I'll see if I can get a picture posted in the next few days.) But that's all I've done. About a week ago I decided to commit to at least one row a day. I have been able to stick to that. I never thought it would be so very difficult to pick up those needles. The desire is there but the drive isn't. I would really like to knit like I used to but just don't have the energy too. Maybe with the cooler weather coming I'll be able to get back into the swing of things.


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